Integration for Us
We have been multiple
for a long time, a world within as real as the world without. No
one in here knows any other way of being. This is our life.
To be something else is no a concept we understand or wish to be.
It works for us, even during the wilderness years we managed to survive
and live a responsible life. Our multiplicity has never been disordered,
yes we have had disorders that have effected our lives, made them at times
unbearable and still are things we must struggle through. We are
multiple because of abuse, it formed as our way to deal with what was happening.
However, what it became was not the product of the abuse. Our genesis
was at the hands of others, but the growth and formation of Idia was our
doing, the forming of our land by our hands, as with any civilization.
We now live in a structured world, with its own codes, culture, history
and society. A fantasy land, maybe, but a fantasy that is as real
as any other land, including Earth.
Now to the topic in
hand, integration. We hold strong views on this, these are our views,
how it works and is seen by us. Idia to our knowledge has roughly
500 inhabitants. Some of those 500 have Chaktra connected to them.
Chaktra is loosely translated to ghosts. They are what the professionals
would call fragments. These are not solid people, they have little
substance or thought capacity, merely storage facilities or facades that
can be worn as shields. Chaktra have sometimes in the past moved
forward, grown and strengthened, taken their place in the society.
Others in turn move forward but never make it to society living in the
mists, these Chaktra usually those that have lost their companions and
remain wandering. But they are a different topic. The Chaktra
that remain with their companions will hopefully one day be able to once
again find their place within that person. Some have already reached
that and it's a joyous occasion. These parts, ghosts, live a tortured
existence, never fully feeling or experiencing anything. They are
hollow tormented souls formed by the abuse that their companion lived through,
they were segmented off, so that the companion could believe that what
the Chaktra felt was no longer alive, that they had died. But Chaktra
never die, unlike the dead children they live with their torment forever.
When the Companion
is strong enough they agree to perform the ceremony that will allow the
Chaktra back home. Most of the time it is one Chaktra at a time,
for some companions have a lot of Chaktra with them. For the Companion
this can be a terrifying step, allowing back the part that was unacceptable
for so long. No matter how prepared they are there is always a degree
of fear associated with this. But no Companion does it alone, there
are attendants in place to protect and support them on this journey.
For the Chaktra there is nothing but relief and bliss. Chaktra always
want to return. Their life is focused on getting home, returning
to that which they were forcefully removed. Once returned the Chaktra
are no longer in existence, they melt into the Companion, becoming a part
of her or him, becoming their existence, knowing all they do. They
return what they hold to the Companion and in return the Companion shares
There will also be
another form of integration. There are some that are here for a reason,
they have a job, duty or task to perform. These await the day when
they are no longer needed. They are not going to sacrifice themselves
for the greater good, nor are they integrating for some kind of want for
us to return to one being. However, when the time comes, the time
when they know that it is time to leave they will do so. Each person
in Idia carries with them a book. The pages fill themselves in as
the person lives their life. All experiences, feelings and thoughts
are recorded on these pages. The book is not written in by the person,
but rather seems to fill itself out. When it comes time to leave
the book is returned to the library, where the Librarian will look after
it. It is available to all in Idia to read, all that the person is
remains. Their life forever recorded.
Then when that is done,
there are two possibilities. The choice is the person's. First
choice is after the book is placed in the library the person may journey
from Idia. Around the village there are dense woods, the place most
of us lived in the wilderness years. No one has journeyed past the
woods, for out there is the wild place. But it is a journey of discovery
and enlightenment. A journey that will take the rest of eternity,
some say that it is heaven, the afterlife where all is learnt. No
one truly knows, but at least one person dreams of the day she can take
that journey. The second choice, the more popular one is a joining
ceremony. In this ceremony, the person can just the recipients or
have it said that all will know. Then they shift, turning first into
a type Chaktra, vague and formless, then as it proceeds the Chaktra moves
to a blinding light that is received by the chosen ones. This means
that all that person was, all they know and feel becomes a part of the
receiver. The original person is not separate but the receiver is
now changed by the entry of that which they were.
Is this the idea of
integration that is debated or proposed by those outside of Idia. I have
no idea. I know that the integration of Chaktra is a powerful, meaningful
step in the journey, they were never meant to be separated, and their life
there is one of terrible pain and loneliness. As for the others it is their
choice, their decision. It is going to be difficult for the rest of us,
the losing of friends. But we stand by their right to choose their life
path. And we will defend our right of choice to the death